Complaining!

Hello bloggers, I warn you. I'm mostly going to complain! I don't feel like myself. You know that feeling when your mind is full but empty?! I've been dreaming a lot, meaning-less dreams, & waking up with headaches. I'm tearful when I don't need to be & it's really embaressing. I'm angry. Yes, angry at myself and others. Ok, so this is the point when I feel I'm driving everyone away. I'm lonely even when I'm with people. What is happenning to me???

I really need to do something about it. Any suggestions?

Note to Fourme: I feel like I'm doing your thing:p

Tagged Myself: "100 Truths".

LAST THINGS:

1. Last beverage : nesacfe's "double chocolate mocha".

2. Last phone call: zain's service center.

3. Last instant message: “Wo bas 5ala9 ensay il salfa?”.

4. Last song you listened to : thagat 3alaik.

5. Last time you cried : 2 days ago.

6. Last text message : sis in-law.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. neon Blue. 

13. apple Green.

14. white.

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend :Yes.

16. Fallen out of love : No.

17. Laughed until you cried : Yeah.

18. Met someone who changed your life : No.

19. Found out who your true friends were : Yes.

20. Found out someone was talking about you : No.

21. Have you kissed anyone on your Facebook friends list: No.

22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life: I don't have facebook.

23. How many kids do you want to have: 3

24. Do you have any pets: No.

25. Do you want to change your name: No.

26. What did you get for your last birthday: Necklace, Candles, Scarf, Money etc..

27. What time did you wake up today : 8:00 AM.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: chatting on BBM.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: travelling.

30. Last time you saw your father: 1 day ago.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: being a stronger person. 

32. What are you listening to right now: a hero lies in you.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No.

34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now: wa7da ma testahel what I did for her.

35. Most visited webpage: Blogs, Emails, Shopping websites, & Travelling websites.

36: what’s your real name: not ready to tell yet.

37. Nicknames : Big Pearls.

38. Status: Married.

39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn.

40. Male or female: Female.

44. University: KU.

45. Hair color : Dark Brown.

46. Long or short : Long.

47. Are you a health freak: Yes.

48. Height: 167

49. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes.

50: What do you like about yourself: depending on myself, very organized, & friendly.

51. What don’t you like about yourself : being too kind, & weak at facing troubles.

52. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :

53. First surgery: il7amdilla none yet.

54. First piercing: Ears.

55. Your first best friend: Hanan.

56. First award: A medal for being an A student.

57. First sport you joined : Tennis.

58. First pet: Parrot.

59. First vacation: London.

60. First concert: SAS Hotel.

61. First crush: High School.

WHAT ARE YOU?

62. Eating : nope.

63. Drinking: nope.

64. I’m about to: go get my hair treatment done.

65. Listening to: I stay in love.

66. Waiting for: Finishing this Tag ;)

YOUR FUTURE :

67. Want kids : Yes.

68. Want to get married : I'm already married.

69. Careers in mind: Doing my own thing.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

70. Lips or eyes: Eyes.

71. Hugs or kisses: Kisses.

72. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.

73. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice Stomach.

74. Sensitive or loud: loud.

75. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.

76. Trouble maker or hesitant: None.

77. Lefty or Righty: Does not matter.

78. Shorter or taller: taller.

79. Older or Younger: Older

HAVE YOU EVER :

80. Lost glasses/contacts: No.

81. Ran away from home: No.

82. Kissed a stranger: No.

83. Drank Pepsi: Yes.

84. Broken someone’s heart: Yes.

85. Been arrested : No. 

86. Turned someone down: Yes.

87. Cried when someone died : Yes.

88. Liked a guy/girl friend? Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself: Yes.

90. Miracles: Yes.

91. Love at first sight: Yes.

92. Heaven : Yes.

93. Santa Claus: No.

94. Kiss on the first date : No.

95. Angels : Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

96. Are you happy with your life: Yes, except when I'm depressed.

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: Yes.

98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: No.

99. Do you believe in God : Akeed.

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes :)

Loan!

A friend asked me "should a woman take a loan for her husband if he really needed it?"

What do you think?

saturday Rituals!

Like every Saturday, I'm getting my hair treatment at my favorite salon. Listening to music, reading my magazine, fashionable women coming in. Total relaxation..and testing my blackberry for the first time. YES..I got it and it is amazing :)

Following the "habba"!

Get a blackberry or not?

Can there be friendship between men & women?

It's a common belief in our society that between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is love, passion, jelousy & desire but no friendship but is it true? Personally, I think friendship does exist. Strangely enough, I found that making friends with the opposite gender has been a lot easier in many situations. Nowadays men and women are interacting very actively at work. They have common hobbies. So naturally, they share common interests and communicate. The key to a successful friendship is to establish boundaries. There's always a line that shouldn't be crossed to keep the friendship alive.

What's your opinion?

A Letter!

Dear Bloggers:

I'm terribly sorry that it's been so long since I last posted. I feel awful about letting you down & leaving suddenly without any notice or explanation. Please forgive my long silence.

I must admit that I gave coming back lots of thought. Should I blog again? Will they accept me? Do they still remember me? I don't think my existence matters, or maybe it does? Well anyways, they remain people whom I love greatly & consider my friends. I shared a lot with them & always found comfort writing to them.

It's a special world, & people share a special friendship in our world. I thank you all greatly for welcoming me back. You really touched my heart. Again, thank you.

Lots of love, Big Pearls.

I'm Back!:)